Overall, its curious to encapsulate. Its a mixture of emotions. I wish I had taken more opportunities to write what is going on, as I feel that would be a better way of understanding what I have gone through in my time here. My time here is almost over, and without it having really struck me, I have lived out of America for 10 months.
I assume that a person undergoes a constant process of change. However, evaluating how far you have come in a year's time is problematic. I feel that to do so places unreasonable expectations on the weight of a year. It assumes that a year is a long enough period of time that you have to change.
I feel that that this is what is happening to me now. A year ago I was doing things that were different. My expectations of what I could accomplish were so much lower. The scale of my goals then is dwarfed by the scale my desires today. Considering how different my current environment is from the one I used to live in, changes had to be spurred in the past year or so.
So what I have here is my 100 day theory. In the process of the 100 days, my goal is to come to terms with how much the person writing this is different from the person who came to China.
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