Awkward...

So, I met someone I really like, which has caused me to cut off communication/booty calling with a near handful of women over the past months. I tried several approaches, such as actually telling them I didn't want to see them. I've also lied about several things, evading them to a point where I hope they get the point. Lastly, my favorite, I've just ignored them. That one is my favorite, as I assume the city is too big to ever run into them again. 

Its all pretty silly, that I am vain enough to think they'd give a fuck I didn't want to see them. Either way, I still didn't want to see any of these women. 

I go to a friend's party, and two steps in is F______, whose last words to me were "you're so selfish, you should find a foreigner girlfriend". I played it about as cooly as possible, she just smiled and said hi. She didn't seem to harbor any ill will, saying she thought I had left town. Just as I was about to escape I realized she was talking to T_____, who I mentioned earlier in a post. She nodded her head down slightly, as she was there with a friend of mine. In fact, F____ was there with another friend of mine. It seems that when I cleared the bench these girls found another foreigner. 

Overall, I learned a few things that night. For one, nobody is going to waste that much time on you if you don't want to be with them, life is too short. Second, I had always carried a lot of guilt with me for every woman I brushed off. I know now that as long as I do what I feel, and I'm not wasting someone's time, I really shouldn't feel guilty if I think there's no future in seeing someone anymore. 

I'm happy for these women, as they no longer have to deal with me anymore...